Digital art
My first serious attempt at art was making digital paintings. The subject was usually introspection, depression and existential anxiety. I started doing digital art around 2014 when i bought myself graphical tablet. I was about 16 years old and starting first year of highschool/liceum. I posted my first artworks on Deviantart and some forums. A lot of my work was and still is inspired by the works of furry community. I see anthropomorphic creatures as a good way to portray my personal emotions and thoughts. They help making them more universal. I would't exactly say I'm a furry though, but I do appreciate many artists who are.
All of my digital works were made with a Wacom Bamboo Pen&Touch tablet on my PC.
*Click on the name or thumbnail to get full size picture. Positions below are loosely sorted from newest to oldest.
2022
It's an emotional self portrait. The same character is in form of two birds, comforting itself because no one else will. I made this piece in a difficult moment of my life.
2021
Just depression and emptiness. I was inspired to make this after trying to work at McDonalds. It was very tiresome, hot air was making it hard to breathe and the perspective of doing it all day, few days a week was unbearable. Other inspiration for this was Cruelty Squad game and a moment where players' character transforms into a flesh blob like that.
2020
I made this after being very sick and in a fever. Having a suffering body and being dependant on it is something I think a lot about.
2019
This one was made when I had trouble with finding motivation for work and was unhappy with the level of my skills. It was also time when I was making less paintings than before.
2019
Just one of my attempts at painting whatever just to keep the routine. It portrays feelings of being lost and vulnerable.
2019
This was made when I was evaluating my life and my choices. I had wasted a lot of opportunities because of depression and it made me feel really bad. The butterflies the character is releasing are said opportunities and different colored rooms visible in the mirror are life paths I have closed.
2019
Just me and my friend/partner. It's showing me giving him mushrooms, both good and poisonous. I really like this medieval inspired style and wanted to make something in that tone.
2018
I made that when I was with my first ever partner and it's a snapshot of my life at the time. Every detail is a symbol of something. There are my irl friends, internet friends, family, my partner, my personality, me, and more.
2018
Inspired by a silly meme where a scientist proudly shows a machine that suffers and asked why did he build that he just stands confused. My work is of course an allegory for living beings that are born just to suffer for no reason.
2018
The character is me exchanging messages with my at the time favorite artist and a crush. Painting shows that he is living in a far away land.
2017
When I was living in a students dorm my segment was just above the party room. And every now and then people would throw a party until very late hours which was very inconvenient for me and was making me very unamused.
2018
One day i decided to try acid with two of my friends. One of them took mushrooms instead. At some point I made a drawing of our polish lolcow far-right politician Janusz Korwin Mikke. We put it on the radiator and one of my friends (the mushroom one) said it looks like a cat. When I came home (still high) I made this.
2017
One of my best works. It portrays my fear of death and feeling of being trapped in this material reality. The picture shows that behind the window there is nothing holy or spiritual. Just more of the material plane. The character is trying not to watch.
2017
My all time favorite. It depicts me living in my students dorm. It was very interesting moment of my life because it was then when I finally left parents home. Doing my own groceries, cooking my own food, dealing with annoying roommates, getting lost in a big city. I really like that feeling of allowing yourself of being lost but still being in control. Where you don't know what to do, but you are the one that makes all the choices. And of course sad reality check about going to university being "best moment in life". It wasn't good because I was still suffering with heavy case of depression.
2016
Just some psychodelic picture of a monster in a retro themed room. The room is actually based on my grandmas home. I liked and still like psychodelic themes like in Silent Hill 2.
2016
Just an anthro monster in his bathtub. I love weird fantasy settings and It's supposed to fit into that. The goal of the picture was to capture the feeling of a gray, sunless day. Fun fact though, my computer has crashed during production of this painting, deleting hour of two of my work. After that for a long time I was saving every picture I was working on on three separate files, saving on different one each time.
